I choose the blessings...

Caroline, my Reiki teacher once told us that she is able to see our true potential. Just a glimpse of what we could be, would open up a world without limits. Bottom line, we limit ourselves through our thoughts, which only extend to what seems possible, and in doing that, we become disconnected from who we truly are.

I believe this is true, as I have seen so many of my near and dear living their self-fulfilling prophecy. Sometimes of their own creation, but most often of those around them, who with love, eloquently label, stereotype and project their own perspectives onto someone else. I am also a product of struggling (like a size 12 into a size 8 jean) to get rid of my own limited thoughts of who I am.

So from today, I have a new mantra....it says: "I choose the blessings!"...and with that I mean any great thought or dream on my own health, wealth or wisdom, I will embrace and wear like a favorite woolly blanket. I will become unashamedly the best me I can be, without guilt or reservation...one with my higher self :)


“Your vision will become clear only when you can look into your own heart. Who looks outside, dreams; who looks inside, awakes.” – Carl Jung

Time....

"I am a pilgrim of the future on my way back from a journey made entirely in the past."
Teilhard de Chardin

It has been a while :) What happened to the last few weeks? ....or months for that matter? With a sense of "have I spend my time wisely" tightly wrapped around my heart, I am speeding towards the big 40. A very humbling experience if one is not emotionally prepared for it! Luckily, as every part of my physical body turns south, my spirit seems to soar, and with this in mind, Venita (my best friend) and I will be starting the big year with a visit to India! (Yes, Eat, Pray, Love definitely played a role, but so did yoga, and reiki, and all the wonderful books and events which seemed to have stealthily steered us to this point.)

My significant other (who already hit this number a while back!) nearly lost a dear family member in the last month and with ageing parents, every minute feels like a gift. He always tells me that we all have time in equal amounts, nobody can buy more or go back. It makes me want to shout...STOP....I need to breathe in this moment. It makes me less likely to want to indulge those senseless activities, entertain people just for the sake of it, or to waste time on trivial pursuits.

This is an ode to seizing the moment...Carpe Diem!

Friends...

"I get by with a little help from my friends"....indeed Mr. Lennon :)

One of my most awesome blessings is definitely the gift of great friends. Not many, I must add, but a handful, an A-team, send from another better planet (mmmm....I'm thinking Avatar). I must confess that it will result in a very unlikely social setting if I have to get them into the same room, at the same time. They come from all shapes and sizes, all social backgrounds, all political-, religious- and sexual orientations, but they are all WOW!!!

The wonderful thing is that if I feel like the lack of inspiration and magic, there is Nevada....If I need to share an amazing cup of coffee topped with lots of love and understanding, Martie is always on hand....my spiritual journey is unequivocally bonded with Venita...my appreciation of the finer things in life (as well as some unmentionable opinions) are Hilko's contributions...and world view (and heart) is held in Johan's caring hands.

 

Anais Nin said it well...

 

"Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born."

To great friends!

Into the light....

There are many precious scenes in movies and books where people passing over, are depicted as going into the light. I believe it is true...

Amazing what light does for us, dwellers of mother earth (bless Eskom). I am reading a book by Ian McCallum called "Ecological Intelligence" (thanks for introducing me, Paul) and it is fascinating how, on a practical level, light (daylight, fire, heat) secured the survival of the human race.

And of course, in the realms of religion, the play between darkness and light have been a source of great fear as well as wondrous deliverance. It is no wonder, on some level, we all strive to achieve "enlightenment" in our lives.

I must confess, I do not understand all of it, but I basically know I love the sun on my face, a warm fire in winter, candles flickering with promise, the stars decorating the bush veld sky, a face lighting up with love...and all the Angels.

Sarah Williams said:

Though my soul may set in darkness,
It will rise in perfect light,
I have loved the stars too fondly
To be fearful of the night.

Today I am thankful for my beautiful mother for all her prayers; Venita, Martie & Nevada for their true friendship; Paul for his enlightened mentorship; Caroline for her healing hands and Johan for bringing love and laughter. I feel the light :)

It is the 1st of May 2010 already! I have been meandering through the first 4 months of 2010, with one purpose...to find balance and meaning in my life. After 15 years in the golden shackles of corporate life, I knew it was time to jump ship. I have been privileged since January to travel, to share many amazing moments with Johan, to look after my body (thanks to Robyn's yoga classes... and the Hydro), my spirit (thanks Venita for sharing the journey) and to start following new career directions (thanks to Paul for mentoring me every step of the way).

But it has not been very comfortable. The realisation that my new life might not be as busy, but much more of a challenge, on all levels, does leave me with a sense that I need to stretch this sabbatical - somehow make it last a littler longer. Who wrote this poem again? Most apt description of where I am...at this moment :)

 

I don’t do confrontation very well.
Don’t handle loss either.
Funny, as this year has had a good dose of both.
I have learnt enough lessons and experienced enough karma to fill a few bags.
But, I don’t intend taking them with me.
No, I have learnt my lessons,
but will leave my baggage behind, thank you.
For where I am going,
you need to travel lightly.