Wednesday, June 4, 2014

What am I missing?!

An elderly Gentleman shared a moment with me, and showing all the signs of an unfulfilled, unhappy life, he made me think... 

What will I regret one day? What do I need to be experiencing today, in order not to have regrets tomorrow?

I sat quietly this morning and I tried to list everything that I am really missing out on. Those things that are within my reach, but because I think I have another day to do it in, it never becomes a priority.

Would I like to study for another profession or learn a new language, or even how to play an instrument really well? Would I have like to have a child? What about living in the Seychelles or working in another country? Or even just creating a home for a stray cat and a rescue dog? For that matter, would I like to be married or live with my partner? Would I regret not having my parents live closer to me? Or not having traveled more?

All of these thoughts washed through me, but nothing really stuck...for now :)
I think there are thing that seem desirable for a specific season or a reason. But then that moment passes and you realise why you did not act on it. I will try to remember this, because I know that when you get to a certain age, your perspective changes. We do not look forward anymore, we start backcasting (as opposed to forecasting), wanting to change things that are long past! I want to have the dream now and do baby steps to the best life I can possibly envision.

For me, just knowing that I have a choice is enough to make me feel like I have no regrets. I do not know about the future, but for now I am contented. 

But I'll check again tomorrow!




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